The League of Nowhere

19 April, 2006

my abusive ex-relationship

Filed under: Uncategorized — leagueofnowhere @ 5:48 pm

I have a relationship that I’ve ended that I can’t seem to completely get out of.

It’s with music.

It was a long term and very serious relationship, but we had a lot of problems. In the end, I broke up with her. It’s the only way a relationship like that would ever end; she’s the kind of girl who only occasionally rewards you by gracing you with any interest but when she does you become hopelessly addicted to it. She’d never end the relationship herself, she’s always willing to have you there, provided you understand your place.

Still, I knew all this going in, or at least early enough down the line that I made a conscious decision that it was worth it. So, while it would be easy to blame the end on her I know the problems we had were mine. I brought them with me into the relationship. It’s just that the relationship encouraged those problems until, like an episode of Outer Limits or a Ditko monster comic they became so monstrous that nothing could stand before them.

I may be mixing too many metaphors, here.

So, sitting here these days I know, most of the time, that I did the right thing. But still she comes around. Actually, that’s not really true, it’s the topic of her existence that comes up: Constant reminders of our former relationship; friends who only knew us as a couple and who, when they find out we’ve split, can’t imagine us apart and subtly and not-so-subtly try to convince me of the “rightness” of our relationshipand how they KNOW we’ll end up together in the end. I find myself second-guessing the choice. It’s even worse when I see her with someone else. So I start to think about it again, I start to imagine the ways in which it could work this time. Honestly, I was really good at it, and we deserved more. It’s such a cliché.

But what’s funny is that once I strike up even the smallest conversation with her I am reminded of everything bad about our past together and the prospect of the effort involved in rekindling anything of our former romance seems so huge and so tiring. So I go from being convinced that “this time I can really make it work” to “boy, did I ever get out of THAT relationship in time” in the space of just a couple of hours. But then a part of me wonders if I won’t go back just because I don’t want the hard work that IS a relationship with her. A part of me wonders if I won’t go back just because I know there are those who I’ve given lengthy reasons to hate me who believe I don’t DESERVE the relationship I had with her. A part of me wonders if I only want to go back because being with her made me seem cool.

The worst part is really how it affects my other relationships. I know there are potential relationships all around me. But I can’t commit to them because I don’t want to have to go through those awkward early days of the relationship, or I don’t want to commit and then have it fail, or find that she isn’t what I thought she was.

And so my life lingers on hold and I can’t/won’t/refuse to move, all over this ex-relationship that I can’t put a final bullet into.

Just one small example…

Filed under: Uncategorized — leagueofnowhere @ 11:54 am

For anyone who saw the press releases last week and wondered just how Cheney managed to do so well with his tax return…

Apparently it was creative usage of the administration's Hurricane Katrina tax relief act: Cheney "claimed $6.8 million of charitable deductions, which is 77% of his AGI — well in excess of the 50% limitation that would have applied absent the Katrina legislation."

However, it also seems that none of this money actually went to Katrina-related charities. It's not illegal. But it is fairly sleazy.

15 April, 2006

Unsubstantiated Pronouncement #1

Filed under: Uncategorized — leagueofnowhere @ 7:47 pm

I’ve decided to embark on a new feature for my three readers. On a completely irregular basis I will make shocking statements that I believe to be totally true, based solely on my own gut feelings and few, if any, hard facts.

Each Pronouncement will eventually lead to one of two moments in the future:
1) Laughter and merriment will abound as we realize how foolish I was, followed by a vague malaise as we reminisce about the days when our skies weren’t clogged with rocket cars.
2) I am secretly kidnapped and rendered to Syria for “knowing too much.”

So, without further ado…

Unsubstantiated Pronouncement #1
U.S. ground forces are already in Iran.

Green Zone, U.S.A.

Filed under: Uncategorized — leagueofnowhere @ 11:01 am

104 acres.

It’s the size of Vatican City, two-thirds the size of the National Mall in Washington and 6 times the size of the U.N. compound in New York.

Is there really anyone one left who thinks we aren’t there to stay?

14 April, 2006

non-denial denial

Filed under: Uncategorized — leagueofnowhere @ 9:30 am

You know, the trouble with thinking I might try my hand at being political here is that I have a life outside the internet and by the time I get around to writing something the story is days old.

Edit:
But what I was going to talk about:
> The Washington Post article about the “WMD trailers”

> Scott McClellan’s response, which in effect boiled down to, “This is old news and you should apologise for bringing it up.” Which is as fine a non-denial denial as I have ever seen.

His other defense seems to be that the President wasn’t told of the report at the time, it was so recent. Except that the administration was still hawking these trailers to the public as late as February of 2004 (the report disputing them is from May of 2003).

7 April, 2006

Statement of Principles

Filed under: Uncategorized — leagueofnowhere @ 12:17 am

I have no idea what this will turn into, or if I will simply abandon it.
I may talk politics.
I may whine.
I may review stuff.

Mostly, I’ll be trying to write just for myself. And the three people who will be reading it. I include myself in that number.

I know I will probably start linking to a lot of political stuff, mainly for myself, and then for anyone else who might stumble on it and then go to the original post.

Anyway, I just wanted to put something up.

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